Bittersweet things

Dh and I finished drawing up the BPA Scholarship Application papers in Matt's name. The first $1,000 scholarship will be awarded in May. Such mixed emotions of grief and thankfulness. Grief because this scholarship wouldn't exist if my son hadn't died, yet so incredibly thankful that over $10,000 has been given in honor of our son and his memory. *sigh* So very hard.

We also finalized the set up of a Christian message board for those grieving the loss of a loved one. www.grievingwithhope.org will be launched officially July 29. In the meantime, it will be "unofficially" open via word of mouth so that we can work out any programming bugs or issues before the official launch and get feedback on anything that might need tweaking. Again, bittersweet. Programming the whole website would have been totally up Matt's alley. Yet the only reason the board exists is because Matt died.

Bittersweet.